Seems like self esteem needs you to compare either yourself to others or yourself now to yourself in past similar situations. If you stop comparing this moment to other moments, you free yourself from the insatiable addiction for praise and the crippling fear of criticism. You enjoy what is. Isn’t that what we put so much effort into attaining? We’re working hard to try to satiate an insatiable mind. Bypass the mind and get straight to the enjoyment of Life.